[quote='LittleFox' pid='317' dateline='1367628441']
I'm so sorry to hear that all of this has happened to you Crystal. It's really unfair when people hold high expectations for you that you have a hard time reaching. It can put such an unbearable amount of pressure on a person. In my experience, you won't be able to change your parents behavior unless they choose change themselves, but from what you've written, I'd assume you've already tried speaking with them about how you feel.
As for your weight and image problem, try surrounding yourself with good friends that will say good things about you. You really don't notice it at first, but once you start hanging around with good, confident friends that have strong morals, you'll notice a difference in your thoughts. I used to be really worried about how I looked myself. Once I met my boyfriend though, things really changed. He's a wonderful guy that showers me with compliments every day, and, despite the fact that I'm still a little self-consious about my appearance, my confidence has improved a great deal.
Dealing with depression is one of the hardest struggles there is. I know because I'm right there with you. I've only joined the site recently, so I'm only going off of what's written here, but just try taking 5 minutes a day to go over all the positive things (no negative ones!) in your life and focus on them. See if that helps you to improve your emotional state any. I hope this helps, and if not, shoot me a PM. After all, ears are meant for listening, and sometimes a good long talk can help relieve some of the stress.
Thank you so much for your advise, LittleFox. I sincerely appreciate it. You seem to be a very nice girl
Exactly. I've already tried that and it has not been possible for me to change that (this is more about my father. My mother's different and much better). That is true: you can't change others, unless they're willing to change themselves.
Well, regarding the image stuff: it's really hard to find good people to hang out with over here. They just think of getting drunk every friday and waiting for you to do all their job, which is why I prefer to be alone. I'll just have to start thinking differently and more optimistically, like you said.
I'm happy to hear that you have a nice BF and good friends that you can trust. You absolutely deserve them Thank you for being willing to listen to me. Remember that you can always do the same, always!!!
[quote='Emotion' pid='318' dateline='1367995651']
It does sound like your depression is worsening. Have you seen your psychiatrist lately? It would be better to discuss these issues with your psychiatrist since they are trained to deal with these kinds of issues.
In the meantime, you can change your lifestyle a bit and see if that helps. I'm talking about things like:
Exercising, even if it's just a walk
Making sure you don't rely on junk food to cheer you up. Many people like to consume very sweet or very fatty food, which gives them a spike in happiness followed by a big plumet. It often leaves you feeling worse than you were before you ate the food. I'm not saying don't eat them, but don't self-medicate with them. It's a recipe for disaster.
Going out with friends
I understand you just wanted to get it off your chest and that's very good. In fact, you should always get things off your chest, whether it's talking to a close friend, your psychiatrist, or even on this forum. It's important that you not bottle up your emotions.
Thank you for the advice, Emotion.
Well, if I have another episode like this one, I'll probably go again. You're totally right when you say that getting things out of my chest will help me more than any other thing. I've noticed that and I've been doing it lately.
The only thing that I don't do is meditating. I already have a very healthy lifestyle (except for the smoking thing). It proves that no matter what you do, if you don't have enough willpower to change your situation, you'll always be miserable.