How should I start??? It's hard for me to describe this 'emotion/sensation/feeling' or whatever it is, anyway I'll do my best.
For a very long time, I've had this strange feeling inside me and it's not easy to portray. It's been there since I was very, very young and instead of disappear, it keeps growing inside me (especially after I've had an episode of depression or lots of personal problems).
I feel like something's missing or I'm incomplete. There's something that I need, but I can't find. I used to believe it was part of my depression. If I'm happy or excited about something, the same feeling appears again and drags me down. It's like a ghost.
If I had to associate this with something, it'd be with hollowness...although I wish I knew what it is and how to get rid of it.
I just needed to write this. It's alright if no one wants to reply, because it's a very abstract issue...at least, you took your time to read it.